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Pretty sure I'm not gonna make the nanomango goal before the end of the month...

Flaked on my last two attempts to attend the OC Ball...

By all intents and purposes I probably should be dissolving into a puddle of self-pitying oh-gods-I'm-such-a-loser-why-do-I even-want-to-be-an-artist-weh-weh glop but weirdly enough, I'm not. And that is...good? This is progress, maybe.

It's fair to say between RL stuff going on (which I'm not going to go into detail about but trust me I'm not exaggerating when I say it's run the gamut between time-consuming and hellish) work, and modding the nanomango communities, I've had my butter spread thin. I'm feeling tired and a bit annoyed and frustrated at being art-blocked but I'm not turning these feelings on myself like I tend to do.

This year especially I've been so SO dang proud of seeing all these artists tackling the NaNoMangO, I mean how inspirational is that seeing them working so hard and pumping out these pages and pages of art and sketches and stories bless them! that creativity and enthusiasm is amazing, they are amazing and I'm just wallowing joyfully in all that amazing-ness no lie.

I think there's some point where the mounds of inaction that keep piling up finally get to be too much, where you're just like " F**k it, it's time to draw ain't got time for this artblock crap " I don't know if I've gotten to that point yet, if there's more setbacks and false starts in my future and hours of me glowering down at my drawing hand like " why don't you WORK "

...but instead of feeling hopeless and bummed about it I'm more like " This is ok. I can handle this. I'm moving forward and this is ending soon. "

And oh friends that is the best, best feeling. 

I'm trying to pretend that last journal didn't exist.

Mostly what I am doing now is just surviving, working and trying small art things...

2011 was ok although the last few months of it were not fun at all. At any rate it's over and done with and thank goodness!

2012 is going to be the year that I...

1) Launch a webcomic

2) Put more time and effort into my art

3) Finish something

4) Get in shape

5) Work actively on finding that special someone


"Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky,
The flying cloud, the frosty light;
The year is dying in the night;
Ring out, wild bells, and let him die."

Happy New Year everyone and I hope it is a wonderful one

Will upload some new GG fanart sketches in a bit but I was curious. All this June I have been working on a sketch-comic for NaNoManGo, based on an original story of mine and part of a series of written stories that my dear writing partner, the mysterious Lady Ninja H and myself are in the process of submitting to publishers. I did make my goal and then some 34 pages worth. It's REALLY rough messy sketches though (as my NaNoManGo comics usually are), got a lot of goofups and wonky perspectives and whatnot, not polished stuff at all. But any of you care to see it as it is now? or should I wait to try and polish it up some? Gimme some feedback, thanks guys. peace out

but we are still not driving space-cars back and forth to the moon how sad :C

They say whatever is the first thing you do for the new year, you will be doing it for the rest of the year. So I am chatting with my dear friend H, looking at fantastic art and being inspired. This is a great thing to do for the rest of the year.

one of my goals for the new year I should add is 'put up the rest of the NaNoManGo comic' durrhurr...I did meet my 30 pages 30 days goal just have been a lazybutt about putting it up on DA

At any rate Happy 2011 everyone and may your year be full of blessings and awesomeness <3